Off the Grid

Rebekah was an answer to Abraham’s servant’s prayer.  In Genesis chapter 24, she is described as beautiful, helpful, humble, obedient, and a comfort to Isaac after his mother’s death.

Sounds great!  Then as I read through the next two chapters, I found out that she was childless, then became pregnant with twins, and that there was going to be some tension between them from birth.  Rebekah’s boys grew up, and Isaac called for Esau to get his blessing.  All of the sudden in Genesis 27, Rebekah becomes deceitful, convincing Jacob to take advantage of his father’s illness and lie to him so that the prophecy concerning the younger child would come to pass.

{Insert Record Scratch}  What happened?  I read and re-read the previous three chapters and started getting REAL judgy.  What made Rebekah go “off the grid?”

I was pretty sure I could read between the lines, but instead of coming up with my own conclusion, I went to one of my favorite reference books, Matthew Henry‘s Commentary on the Whole Bible. There is a FREE {Online Version}, but I prefer a hard copy.  There’s just something about getting my hands on the pages and underlining with a pencil or highlighter.  It’s a huge, heavy book.




Matthew Henry gave some wise insights about why Rebekah would have acted this way: (from Genesis 27:6-17)

Rebekah is here contriving to procure for Jacob the blessing which was designed for Esau; and here,I. The end was good, for she was directed in this intention by the oracle of God, by which she had been governed in dispensing her affections. God had said it should be so, that the elder should serve the younger; and therefore Rebekah resolves it shall be so, and cannot bear to see her husband designing to thwart the oracle of God. But,II. The means were bad, and no way justifiable. If it was not a wrong to Esau to deprive him of the blessing (he himself having forfeited it by selling the birthright), yet it was a wrong to Isaac, taking advantage of his infirmity, to impose upon him; it was a wrong to Jacob too, whom she taught to deceive, by putting a lie into his mouth, or at least by putting one into his right hand. It would likewise expose him to endless scruples about the blessing, if he should obtain it thus fraudulently, whether it would stand him or his in any stead, especially if his father should revoke it, upon the discovery of the cheat, and plead, as he might, that it was nulled by an error personae—a mistake of the person.

Translation:  Rebekah knew God’s promise about Jacob, but didn’t see things heading in the right direction.  She decided to take matters into her own hands and fulfill the promise in her way and time.

If I’m honest with myself, I’ve done this many times–in my marriage, my parenting, my finances, my relationships, my career, etc.  The Bible is filled with God’s promises.  I know the ending to my life’s story and it’s a bright future!  But sometimes, like Rebekah, I don’t see things happening fast enough or things don’t seem to be logically shaping up.  I disconnect from God’s Word, from faith, and take matters into my own hands with a brilliant solution I came up with ON MY OWN.  I have gone “off the grid.”

But Isaiah 55:8,9 says:

“My thoughts are completely different from yours,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.  For just as the havens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”

Yes, Rebekah could’ve handled things very differently.  Again, from Matthew Henry:

If Rebekah, when she heard Isaac promise the blessing to Esau, had gone, at his return from hunting, to Isaac, and, with humility and seriousness, put him in remembrance of that which God had said concerning their sons,—if she further had shown him how Esau had forfeited the blessing both by selling his birthright and by marrying strange wives, it is probable that Isaac would have been prevailed upon knowingly and wittingly to confer the blessing upon Jacob, and needed not thus to have been cheated into it. This would have been honourable and laudable, and would have looked well in the history;

This is where humanity and faith comes into play.  It is where I come back and get plugged in.  I could kick myself, but here’s where I get very encouraged.  Here’s Matthew Henry’s conclusion:

but God left her to herself, to take this indirect course, that he might have the glory of bringing good out of evil, and of serving his own purposes by the sins and follies of men, and that we might have the satisfaction of knowing that, though there is so much wickedness and deceit in the world, God governs it according to his will, to his own praise.

Romans 8:28 says:

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

Ultimately, God is in control.  He will work his purpose through me one way or the other.

How do I stay “on the grid?”   The only thing I’ve seen work for me is when I’ve had a daily discipline of reading/speaking scripture AND capturing bad thoughts and replacing them, not with good thoughts, but spoken promises from Scripture. The other thing I have seen that helps is living life with people that also value “staying on the grid.” (I’ve always heard that I am a reflection of the 5 people I spend the most time with, that no association is neutral.  There is either a positive or negative effect from being around them.)

In any case, I have more in common with Rebekah then just our name.  We are human, we are women, we are mothers, we know God’s promises, and we both have had our struggles with going “off the grid.” Thank God that we can “get plugged in” at any moment and God can use us and any indirect paths we may have taken.


You First

I love it when my marriage is smooth sailing, when Aron and I are clicking, when he’s picking up what I’m putting down and vice versa. It’s when he or I don’t have to ask. We just know the deal and get it done for each other.


But there are times when I become selfish and things go the “I Always, You Never” or the “You Always, I Never” route. I can start seeing things through the “victim” lens and start playing the blame game. I sometimes wonder, “How can my marriage go from total bliss one day to stormy seas the next?”


Here’s the thing: Self-counsel is dangerous. Thinking my way out of my own problems never works out well. So, I appreciate perspective. I {heart} broadening my horizon and seeing beyond my personal view. I have taken a shine to Karen Stubbs and her ministry, Birds on a Wire. I love her transparency and willingness to use her personal experiences to benefit women coming on behind her. This year, she has done a series on exchanging lies for the Truth. She stretched my perspective SO far on marriage, it hurt.

Here it is:

#1 My husband isn’t my Completer. He was never created to meet all of my needs. Talk about taking the pressure off! I’m not lowering my expectations of my marriage or Aron (because he truly is amazing), but remembering that he is human, that he AND I will make mistakes. God cannot make mistakes and He is in my corner.

Isaiah 54:5: “For your Maker is your husband— the Lord Almighty is his name— the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.

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{Exchanges: Husbands}

#2 Marriage only works when partners are willing to be self-sacrificial (“die to self” in Christianese.) Karen points out that it’s easier to “die” when she sees her husband “dying” first. When those “victim” lenses go on, it becomes “You first, then I’ll follow.” She shares Galatians 2:20: “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

Even if I don’t feel like I have more to give, as a Christian, I have been given grace, or power, to go beyond my own strength as Christ works in me.

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{Exchanges: Quiet Time}

Even if I am the one to start the process of self-sacrifice, the desired result comes with a return to that connected partnership.

“…moving first may be risky, but it is very powerful. Rarely can you lose…When you touch your spouse’s deepest need, something good almost always happens.” (“Love and Respect” p. 75)

So, I’ve read a book and listened to some audios. Now what? How do I keep myself from doing what is so easy…becoming selfish? The most tangible way that I have ever heard of and used is writing down the promises I’ve read in Scripture on a 3×5, keeping them somewhere really handy, and then reading them aloud to myself over and over. (These ideas from scripture of relying on God, who is not visible, as my Completer and Need Meeter and then “dying to self”, completely unnatural, are hard to do.)

But faith, then actions, are easier to gain when I’ve heard my voice speak these verses over and over. Romans 10:17: “Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word about Christ.”

You first.